Cause There’s Beauty In The Breakdown

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Written by Karishma Gill

Lord Buddha is guiding me with this article. For those of you who know me, I commune with Light Beings day in day out as I am merely Spiritual Conduit, a messenger, a vessel. Just by merely thinking about them, they appear next to me to assist me spiritually. In fact, the Being of Light guiding me right now is Lord Thoth, an earlier incarnation of Lord Buddha. Very tall and loving. Full of knowledge. And he’s here to deliver a message to those who are experiencing their own spiritual breakdown…The message is…There is beauty in this breakdown.

If you had told me this many years ago, I would have scoffed at this statement. But I was a different person then. I hadn’t had my spiritual awakening which came after I experienced my ‘breakdown’. This isn’t a nervous breakdown but a gradual letting go of all that you have known in your current human life. Your 3D templates, your 3D thought processes, your 3D behavior, your 3D everything…Everything that you thought you knew about Life is being released and stripped from you. Cruel, you might think. No, it really isn’t. The Universe is helping you along the way to release layer after layer of how you felt Life should be. All the thought programming, all the limiting beliefs…all being removed. You are being re-wired literally. Why? Well, you incarnated to experience a shift towards 5D. So, you can’t experience the Fifth Dimensional world with Third Dimensional values.

If you are reading this and feeling that you are meant to read this then you did choose this spiritual journey before you incarnated. Many of us thought that this is ‘happening’ to us. In fact, we chose to go through this to be able to transform to become the Bringer of Light as we move to a 5D world. But why is this so difficult??? How can it be so difficult? It hurts! I can’t stand the pain…No one gets me…I didn’t ask for this…How to manage this…??! Simple. By understanding what is happening to you.

Let me share with you a story that one of my mentors, Crystal Andrus Morissette shared with me some years ago. I was going through my own breakdown. Layers upon layers were being peeled off and I was in great pain. The raw feeling of having all that you know taken away from you was unbearable until I heard her share this story…which so happens to be a true story.

In 1957, a group of Thai monks, who were in charge of a shrine were told that they would have to relocate it due to a new port and a highway that was going to be built through their area. This shrine had a giant clay Buddha. On the day of the move, a large crane was brought in to lift the clay Buddha. As the crane started to lift it, the clay Buddha started to crack. The monks frantically asked the crane operator to stop as their precious Buddha was being destroyed. The engineers and the monks discovered large cracks on the Buddha and decided that a much larger crane was needed for this move but they had to wait another day. To protect the clay Buddha, the monks covered it with a tarpaulin that day.

At night, the head monk decided to check on the clay Buddha. With his flashlight, he was examining the cracks when something caught his eye. He didn’t understand what he was seeing so he found a chisel and hammer and started chipping away at the cracks very carefully. What he was looking at under the cracks was so unbelievable that he ran and woke up the other monks who started helping him chip away at the cracks. By lantern light, the monks toiled and chiseled away for hours removing all the clay. When they stood back to see what was in front of them, a giant solid gold Buddha was looking right at them.

When the engineers came back in the morning, there was much confusion as to where was the clay Buddha?! The monks explained what had happened and decided to contact historians to discover the origins of this Golden Buddha. After much research, the historical pieces were put together. Centuries ago, the monks who were in charge of this Golden Buddha were in fear of an upcoming attack from the Burmese army. They were sure that the army would loot this shrine for its Golden Buddha. To protect their precious Golden Buddha, they covered it with 8 to 12 inches of clay.

Once they were finished, the Buddha truly looked like it was made of clay. The monks were right and the army didn’t touch the clay Buddha. However, all the monks were killed during the attack and the Golden Buddha was hidden for hundreds of years until that fateful day.

What do you make of this story? How does it relate to you? Simple. In each of us, lies a Golden Buddha. A Golden Soul. Waiting to be discovered. We have put on so much of this 3D clay that we had forgotten who we really were. A Golden Being who has come here to shine your Light onto humanity and the planet in service of Divine Love. The clay represents our old programming, thoughts, behavior, and way of Life that no longer serves us anymore. In order for us to release ourselves from this clay, we will need to surrender our All to the Universal Flow. To allow the Universe into our lives. To seek help from the Divine to help us let go of layers upon layers of this clay that we have accumulated all our lives. Just like the monks were chipping away at the clay for hours, it is to become our responsibility to start chipping away at our 3D clay as well. And we aren’t alone. Millions of us are going through this process.

Yes it can be painful. Because we are letting go of all that we once knew to be true. And it isn’t working for us anymore. What we knew about our working life is shifting and is closing in on us. What we knew about relationships with our loved ones is falling apart in front of us. Why is this happening? I didn’t ask for this pain…I can’t handle this…what do you want me to do?! Why is nothing working out for me anymore? Why is everything that I am trying to do not working out? Please help me…And in that moment, when you let go like that, Help comes to you to help you understand that you are ready to let go of the clay that is surrounding you right now. Your 3D clay that comes with all 3D Life Principles that no longer serves you. Why? Because you are shifting higher in vibration.

Your Soul wants to come out and play. Your Soul has a purpose to fulfil. Your Soul’s vibration is higher than you could possibly imagine. And the current vibration that you have been living with does not serve you. Something has to shift and it starts with You. The chipping of your clay. You will have to let go of the clay that has kept you ‘safe’ all these years. Yes…safe. So that when the time was right, the clay would be removed to once again reveal your Golden Light to the world.

The chipping is a gradual process to help us release 3D layers. Once we release one layer, we get used to not having that layer. We allow the Divine to flow into our lives to heal us and to bring to us a 5D replacement of that layer that is healthier, more loving and helps you be more at One with yourself. We start accepting Life with a certain new rawness of 5D thoughts and behavior. Then the process starts again. It chips away again. Releasing another layer. We heal ourselves and feel what it’s like living without that layer. Living Life with a brand new 5D perspective. And the cycle repeats itself over and over again until there is no more clay to be chipped. Until we are fully stripped of all 3D energy. Until we fully imbibe all 5D energy and Life Principles. Until we are One with 5D Consciousness.

As each layer is chipped away from us, we wake up that much more. Like a flower that blooms gradually. Like a rose opening its multi layered petals to share its beauty. Let go of all that you know. Let go of what you think you know. It is in the letting go that we can fully surrender to our own beauty. Our own Light. As each layer is chipped away from us, our Golden Light shines that much more bright. As each layer falls behind us, our Golden Light is felt through our bodies, our minds, our souls. We start to recognize and remember who we really are. The Golden Light of our Soul is the most familiar feeling you will feel. It feels like home. As each layer peels off, you are getting closer to Home. And before we get Home, let us also enjoy the journey of how we found Home.

As your clay breaks down, your Golden Light shines a deeper shade of untold beauty. A beauty that can only be witnessed when you willingly break your own clay down. When you decide that I am now done with this layer and I want to see what is behind it. The unveiling. The moment your eyes see your Golden Light for the first time. When you heart senses that familiar feeling. When you no longer hesitate and just shed that layer willingly…In that moment…That is the moment…when you heart cries in awe of what you truly are. As what is shining back at you is too breathtakingly beautiful to believe. You will know then, that all this suffering, all this pain that you went through, all the crying as you shed your layer…was to show you that you are no longer in need of that layer. For what is before you is that much more precious. That much more valuable. That much more powerful than you can ever fathom. And you yourself will finally know…that there is Beauty in the break down.

To all my friends, who are experiencing their break down, please know this. I am there with you. I also experience my own break down here and there. There are days when I can’t go on because the pain of letting go of that layer is that much more painful than moving forward from that space. I get it. I totally get it. Take your time. There is no rush in chipping away at your clay. For it is in the understanding of why you want to hold on to that layer, that helps you understand why you also need to let go and move forward. All your triggers, all your pain, all your ‘doing my best and nothing is working out’ is there for a reason to show you always and forever that there is a greater power at place here. One that is to show you that you are not alone in this process. To help carry you through your pain as you surrender your all to All That Is. To Source. To Universe. To God.

Wherever you are in the process, be it before letting go, during letting go and after letting go, know that each step was valuable for you to understand why you were there, where you are going and how to get ahead. Everyone’s break down will be different from the rest. And if you are experiencing it, please know you are also being supported by the Divine, who is your co-partner in this process. The Divine is here to share in your pain and help you let it go. To bring you a brand new 5D method of experiencing Life once again. This means taking a breath of fresh air with 5D lungs, looking at Life from 5D eyes, tasting food again from your 5D tongue and making love with a 5D touch. All you have to do is ask for Divine help and it shall be given to you.

I look up to see Lord Buddha/Lord Thoth smile at me. It is done child. Now you let go of it too…He meant the wound that I still carry. The wound of always wanting a life partner, a family of my own. I never received that in my life. Just a lot of heartbreak and painful memories. There is a void in my soul. I was trying to fill it by asking for another man to come into my life but that won’t heal me. Why bring in another to fulfil me when it isn’t his responsibility to complete me. It is up to me to understand how this void came to be and what I can do with 5D energy to fill this space beautifully. I tried the 3D way. It didn’t work. So…I too am letting go of that layer of the ‘wantingness’ of having a husband and children. It is so hard…for that is what I have always desired as a woman. Therefore, it is time for me to say goodbye to it. To set fire to that wish that has consumed me all these years. To release that layer that binds me to 3D pain and suffering. So that I can open up to see what is behind this layer. To see what the Universe has planned for me. Yes, it will take time but I am ready now. I will cry, I will scream, I will move through the pain. I am after all a 5D Being. I want to see what is behind this clay that I have been carrying all this while as a human. I wish to experience my beauty in my own break down…

I breathe in and out knowing that I too am walking on unknown territory. But I have Divine support and for once I know I am no longer lost. I am slowly learning to let go…for each moment is an opportunity to stay where you are in 3D or shift to 5D. Whatever you chose will be right for you. I leave you with Frou Frou’s Let Go. There were many weeks of listening to this when I was first going through my break down. I pray that it brings you comfort and solace as it does for me till today.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3Cg1wxgX6M

Karishma Gill is a Catalyst to ignite your Calling in life who is working on spiritual gatherings for women to embrace our self worth, connect with our truth and serve from our life’s purpose. When this psychic goddess is not saving the world, you will find her singing or painting.

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